dilemma

i really feel like running away.
trying my best to overcome it.
but its hard to persuade myself its okay.


why does it feel so different?
too much desserts can turn into stressed.


the thought of it brings misery, much.
hopefully one day i wouldn feel like im suffocating from all that confusion and decide otherwise.
sometimes i wished i did.
sometimes i wish i dont.





its far more complicated.
maybe just to me.