i dun noe if its appropriate or not. but i desperately need some enlightenment.
now i understand the meaning of all those songs i dun used to understand.
now i understand the meaning of all those sacrifices i dun used to understand.

i cant say i dun like u.
bcos i think i do.
just that its a diff kind of feeling.
i think i like the way u treat me.
the way u give in.
the way u try to.

but again, thats not love.

i cant say i dun like u anymore.
bcos my heart aches every single time i see you.
memories couldn be erased.
and they are still deeply inside.

its hard to retreat.
but i shall not hesitate to be a bitch.
bcos some stuff cant be forced.

maybe soon i'll realised the enjoyment is temporary.
and it all ends up to one person only.

and that that one person may have his own life, way of living.
and that the one person, have no feelings for me.

i wont go ard declaring that i still like him.
i wont try to close him down to me.
i wont try to stop him from finding some1 else.

and even though i noe that till now its impossible.
till later part its still impossible.

i will still continue liking until one day i can confidently say im not.

i used to thought if u like some1, try to hold him down.
and i realised the meaning of letting go.

and i understand why is it impossible to be friends.
cos it just hurts.

the decision to be on hold.

im really sorry if one day i tell u, i think i still like him.